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Monday, February 23, 2015
Conceived in Rape-Incest, I Was Bullied After Testifying Before the NM Legislature, by Rowena Slusser
On
Friday, February 20, 2015, I went to the New Mexico Roundhouse to speak out in
support of HB 390 Late-term Abortion Ban -- without the rape exception. My family and I got there early, and I was
excited, but nervous! This was a big step for me on so many levels. While I have shared my story with more people
than I can count, I had never spoken in front of a legislative committee with
opposition around me. Why would I go
before the committee and share how I was conceived in incest/rape? Because the lives of the rape/incest-conceived
matter, and as a follower of Christ, I must stand for what is right! A bill with the rape exception IS NOT RIGHT,
NO MATTER WHAT ANYONE SAYS! Before I go
into the details of that comment, I want to share what my day was like.
Testifying
in the hearing was a risk, a big risk. This risk has consequences. Some consequences have already presented
themselves. I have had painful comments
from people close to me. I have been
bullied by legislative and pro-life leaders. My heart is broken! Do I regret standing up, taking the risk? No, I do not! My Savior reminds me that He gives me His
peace. I am loved by Him so I do not
have to be afraid. This is His working! He will continue to lead me and give me what
to say, and I am certain that my day at the Roundhouse was the first of many
advocating for the lives of women who conceive in rape, incest, sexual abuse,
and sex trafficking, along with the lives of innocent pre-born babies who were conceived in rape, incest,
sexual abuse and sex trafficking.
The
House Regulatory and Public Affairs Committee allowed those who were against
the ban to speak first. Their testimonies
went for 2 or 3 hours. Listening to the
pro-abortion statements was difficult, to say the least. Some of the comments
were almost comical because the facts presented seemed staged. I had to cough a few times to clear my throat
so I could stifle the chuckle. It was
heartbreaking to watch soon-to-be physicians and MD’s spout the lies they
believe about abortion. Some of these women were so young! Even as I listened to them, I was praying for
God to reveal the truth to them. There
were women who were virtually shouting at the committee that it was their body,
their lives and that the legislators had no right! I sat in my chair beside my husband and
children, thinking how selfish those comments were. I saw hatred spewing from these women’s
mouths onto our legislators. It was sad.
After
the opposing side had its turn, the line of speakers for HB 390 started to line
up. Since I am in a power chair, moving around this crowded room was a
chore. When I got to the line of those who
wanted to testify in support of the bill, I started to navigate through the
stream of people. I was treated with
kindness and allowed to be second to speak. Oh man, I was conflicted! I was relieved that my task would soon be
over, but I was also so nervous! What if
I forget to properly address the committee? What if I freeze up completely? What if I just cry? What if I make a fool of myself? What if the committee or anyone else hates me
and I am mistreated? Those are just a
few of the thoughts which I was fighting against.
Though
I knew for days before that I was to speak, yet every time I would sit to write
out what I was to say, the paper stayed blank. I sought the Father for His
guidance. What did He want me to tell
this committee?
I
finally wrote down a few words on a piece of paper, while I waited to testify.
Here is what I wrote” “Madam and Mr. Chair and Committee, My name is Rowena
Slusser and I am in support of HB 390 with an amendment to remove the
rape/incest and sexual abuse exception.” I still didn’t know what else I was to tell
this legislative body. Finally, it was
my turn to the microphone. I vaguely
remember reading the introduction off the paper. I remember saying something about the
exception being a civil rights issue. The rest of my testimony is a fog. I have seen my video, so I know that I said
what was needed, but it was the Lord who put those words in my mouth!
I
told my story of having been conceived when my biological father raped his own
daughter, and how at 5 months pregnant, doctors tried to pressure my mom into a
late-term abortion. I also shared how I later became pregnant at the age of 13 when my step-father raped me,
but I tragically miscarried. I explained
to them that he would have forced an abortion upon me, which would have only
protected and enabled him. As I
testified, I remember seeing the committee through what I can only describe as
a wall of water because I was so full of emotion.
I
can only imagine how Moses felt going before Pharaoh, knowing that Pharaoh’s
heart would be hardened! What of Esther?
She becomes queen, only to go before the
king, unannounced (which is punishable by death), to speak up for the life of
her people! But my own life certainly
wasn’t on the line -- I was not in any physical danger. The bravery of these two
biblical heroes is astounding to me, while yet inspiring me. I felt as though I
was pleading for the lives of my people! Who are my people? They are men and women who were conceived in
rape or incest! They are the pre-born babies conceived in rape or incest! They
are the women who are marginalized and mistreated for wanting to keep their children!
They are the parents who have adopted a
rape or incest-conceived child! We are
the first to be offered up as a sacrifice upon the altar of the politics of
compromise. When our lives are extinguished,
so many suffer.
Out
of all the “pro-life” speakers who testified, only four of us took a stand,
asking for the rape and incest exception to be removed. Not one Albuquerque pro-life leader
stood against the exception! One of the
“pro-life” leaders recently called me a “good friend” on Facebook, but good
friends have each other’s backs.
The
line of speakers dwindled down, and I was so relieved because we had been in
the hearing for over 4 hours at that point. Then I was surprised when my husband
said that he wanted to testify! He got up there, introduced himself, and said that he supported the bill with an amendment to remove the rape, incest and sexual abuse exception. Whoa -- my husband, my
hero is standing up! He has been my
biggest support and encouragement -- I have always known that he has my back
when it came to my past and my conception, but now he was speaking out, telling
the committee that he was thankful to my mom for saying no to an abortion! He said that this exception was wrong, telling
them how much he valued me, and how much he loves me -- I was beyond words! That was MY MAN and my man was bold!!! I am so thankful for him! (Casey, I love you and respect you!)
Finally,
the last speaker testified, then the committee asked questions of the
presenters of the bill, and the vote was taken. The bill passed committee with
the exceptions in it. The vote was 4-3, along party lines. My heart broke, but I wasn’t surprised.
I
was ready to go to the hotel. My
children sat through the entire hearing and were tired. I had completed the mission set for me, and
was ready for some rest and relaxation. But
that isn’t what happened.
As
we were preparing to leave, I was approached by New Mexico House of
Representative Rod Montoya (R-San Juan County, District 1). He positioned
himself in a way which made it difficult for me to remove myself. I felt trapped as he whispered with a firm
voice in very low tones. He told us that
he had other people get up to speak for the bill because he didn’t want the
Committee to recall what the previous speaker had said -- someone else at the end who had urged that the rape exception be removed! He warned that we had to be careful with what
we say, telling me that if I continue to show that I do not fully support the
bill, I could cause it to not go through. I told him that I understood what he was
saying, but that I had to speak my conscience! He said that in the House, it wasn’t as big of
a deal, but that in the state Senate, there were two Democratic senators who won’t
vote for the bill’s passage if they heard the slightest opposition.
With
much fervor, he tried explaining to me that “at least some babies would be
saved.” To this comment, I replied that it was the babies’ lives left out of
the bill which is the problem. So then he
“assured” me that if the bill passed with the exceptions, that they would later
revisit it, and cover all lives. Despite a rape exception with no reporting
requirements, and despite a gaping “health of the mother” exception with no
standards other than the abortionist’s “opinion,” he maintained that this bill
would save 95% of the babies being aborted late-term. I told him again that the 5% is why I am
fighting, assuring him that I wouldn’t purposely try to kill the bill, but that
I will not back down from defending babies conceived the same way I was! To this, he actually eluded to me being selfish.
I
then told Representative Montoya that the only possibility of me not speaking
out was if he would email me “proof” of other abortion bills which had exceptions,
where legislators later removed the exceptions. (Mind you, I know that he
cannot do this because it hasn’t happened!) He changed the subject and again scolded me to
stay quiet! I firmly told him that I
would do what I thought was right. He again accused me that it would be my
fault if the bill didn’t pass the Senate.
At
this point, my husband saw what was going on and engaged him in conversation. I told Representative Montoya that I’ve already
considered what he was saying, but that I must not back down. My husband then asked him questions which
completely stumped him, and I was finally able to remove myself from this
“silencing” session. I have seen movies
where a politician tries to manipulate someone to change their stance, but
experiencing this in person, on such a critical matter, was surreal, and disturbing to my spirit.
This
adventure reminds me of a clip from the novel Divergent. Tris has chosen Dauntless. She has to jump
into the unknown to finalize her choice. She has to have courage and bravery! All she has known is how to be invisible as
Abnegation. Selfless, now she has to be daring -- take risk! I see myself a lot in the character of Tris. I have been sheltered in my world, raising my
children, being a stay-at-home wife and mom, serving others – all of which I
love, but it is a sort of comfort zone for me. Now I am being asked to jump out of my comfort
zone and into battle. My voice -- my
risk has been minimal. Now the Lord is calling me to scale mountaintops with
Him. Take risks.
Testifying
in the hearing was a risk, a big risk. This risk has consequences. Some consequences have already presented
themselves. I have had painful comments
from people close to me. I have been
bullied by legislative and pro-life leaders. My heart is broken! Do I regret standing up, taking the risk? No, I do not! My Savior reminds me that He gives me His
peace. I am loved by Him so I do not
have to be afraid. This is His working! He will continue to lead me and give me what
to say, and I am certain that my day at the Roundhouse was the first of many
advocating for the lives of women who conceive in rape, incest, sexual abuse,
and sex trafficking, along with the lives of innocent pre-born babies who were conceived in rape, incest,
sexual abuse and sex trafficking.
BIO: Rowena Slusser is a wife, mother of
2, and blogger for Save The 1. Read more of her story here. Conceived in rape/incest, she advocates for
the protection of all human life. Her
personal blog is “Treasure of
Life.”
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1 comments:
Don't back down Rowena------You are absolutely right in fighting for those little ones conceived in rape or incest. I am pro life and I support you!!!! God bless and stay strong >3
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