It Was Because I Loved Him That I Had to Let Him Go, adoption poetry by Patricia Lawrence

It Was Because I Loved Him That I Had to Let Him Go

I went through the labor,

but never held him in my arms

as I gave him for adoption

so others saw his childhood charms.

But it has always been my prayer

that all these years he did know --

it was because I loved him

that I had to let him go.

He has a special mother

to care for him I’m sure,

and the love she has for him

is one that will endure.

Though I never held him

or saw his boyish smile,

I have always loved him

and hope to see him in a while,

in a while in Heaven,

just through the pearly gates,

when we are together

where our loving Savior waits.

-- Patricia Lawrence

Written prior to meeting my son

I Am His Birthmom, But She is His Mother

I am his birthmom,

but she is his mother.

I gave him birth,

but she gave him other.

She gave him a home,

a mom and a dad,

She gave him something that I never had.

I didn't have a husband

to give him a man

to pattern his life

for good and not bad.

She stepped in when I was

so hopelessly alone

and didn't have things to give,

as she gave him a home.

She gave of her time

and showed him grace,

as she held him close

And looked into his face.

She raised him right,

and at times it was hard,

with trials of her own,

and at times she was tired.

I have great respect for her

and honor her too

for doing the things

that I couldn't do.

May God bless her

all of her days,

and may He always give to her

the Mother's Day praise.

-Patricia Lawrence 

This poem was written as my Mother's day thanks to the fine woman who adopted the son I could not keep.

BIO:  Patricia Lawrence is a widow, mother of 3 daughters, birthmother to one son,

grandmother to 7, and great-grandmother to 6.  She resides in Las Cruces, New Mexico at this time, but will soon be moving to Peoria, Arizona to live with her daughter, as she is losing her eyesight.  Pat has been a pro-life blogger for Save The 1, and has written her pregnant by rape story here.  She's also written a book of her life story which can be read here, and her story has been made into a radio drama -- Part 1, and Part 2.